Guess what I did?!!
Lost my shit today.ðð»â¨â¨
It's was awesome!ð¤¸ââï¸ð¤¸ââï¸ SaidNoOneEver
I'd love to put up a nice workout pic, a pretty selfie, a nice doggie pic, maybe some healthy food or possibly something inspiring or motivational.
But after I played with Lennie for an hour and half, got bit a bunch of times, took her out a few times, vacuumed the house because it was fcking disgusting.. and then I changed to go workout...I saw my acne-filled faced and super puffy eyes.. so I concealed the shit out of them in case I had to take a pic, and then went down in the basement and sat down and cried outta nowhere.
THIS IS NOT LIKE ME.
And I hate it.
And now it's time for the pup to have lunch and play for another hour..and I still haven't worked out, worked on my biz, or helped anybody, or even talked to anyone today because I'm typing this instead. And I can't stop thinking about Christmas presents and bar shifts, and school loans and tax time coming up.
I haven't even attempted social media yet today.. and that's MY JOB.
Holy shit. A-game on FIYAH TODAYð¥ð.
I think when we hold ourselves to certain standards and we just aren't tippin the life-scales the way we want sometimes, negativity and self doubt sets in.
We pick everything apart..."I'm a bad girlfriend, I'm a bad housekeeper, I'm a bad dog mom, I'm a bad coach, I'm a bad sister, I'm a bad daughter, I'm a bad fitness role model, I'm not fit enough, I'm not pretty enough, I'm not inspiring enough, I'm not this and not that, and ALL OF THAT ABSOLUTE BULLSHIT.
I just wanna share, that, even though I'm inspiring and always tryin to keep it positive up in here, I HAVE MY MOMENTS.
And what I sometimes miss, is that I'VE COME A HELL OF A LONG WAY from where I started. I have SO MANY things to be grateful for (my health, my strength, my life, my house, my babe, my animals, my food, my workouts, my healthy community, my fam, my friends, my jobs, my truck, my GOD,ð). LIKE YEssss. So freakin much.
So today, I just want you to know I'm not sitting her to to pout, I'm also not here to show up and be a fake. I never was. I'm not here to show up posting random pics without...CONTDðð